It was mid summer 1986, when a friend of mine and myself had a brainstorm to go river fishing. It was around 8:00PM, and off we went on a Friday night. Forgetting that my friend had removed his front axle from his four-wheel drive, he parked down into a deep ditch, and off we went. As we approached our usual fishing area, we stopped to listen to this hair raising noise, it was almost like being in a Stephen King Sci-Fi. Neither one of us would move, nor had we ever heard anything like it before, and of course it was dark out. All of a sudden it took off and made this noise that was sure to kill us both. As we stood there in shock, it ran right between us and back into the river. It was a mad Beaver. That Beaver was so mad that it had sat out in that corn-field and slapped its tail on the ground and I was so scared that I could not move because of the terror of the sound.
Finally we started laughing, and could not stop laughing. We laughed and could not even do any fishing. Were you scared my friend said, no, how about you I asked, yes I was just like you were, and we started laughing. Finally getting back to the pick-up truck, as we go to leave. And the truck wont come out of the ditch. We get out and turn the 4X4 Hubs on, and try it again, and then it hits him, he had taken the shaft out for repairs. So, we finally start walking. It is a twelve mile drive back to town, and we are now on foot. We had been walking for about fifteen minutes, and thankfully a car is coming our way. Not good, it was a State Conservationist Officer, and we were muddy, looked like escaped convicts, and were tired. What are you two up to? He had asked. And where are your friends? And where is your vehicle? Well, after he checked our I.D.'s, he took us back to town, and told us to leave the truck parked out where it is at until sun-up. And oh by the way he said, I was actually coming out to write two individuals trespassing tickets, but I suppose they are the ones in the vehicle with me right now, we thanked him, and that Beaver. 05-Oct-2019.
Carefully I have drawn myself into this website as a place for which I can share about ones life, the stories, triumphs, losses, the healing process of patience, mindfulness, peace, tranquility, life. It takes more than courage to stand up & face your fears, it takes the life out of you, just to make that first move, it can be absolutely devastating to ask for help, but help is there, it is you that must seek shelter for the help will not be handed to you, you will have to earn it. 03-Oct-2019.
Well, I have completed the following task from 09-Sep-2019, and just need to upload it up to this page. 02-Oct-2019.
As one will explain later, one has found a way, just as a lab has, but in a better way, all by ones self. With controls in hand, one can come up with the tones that they need to match the tinnitus in ones head phones. With no time limit. Will update later. 09-Sep-2019.
As I venture into a new phase of my life, for which I have been thirsting for since who knows when, I find myself becoming more at peace with myself, and with my surroundings. Its hard to explain, but go walk thru the freshly damp cut grass and think about nothing except for the great things in your life, even if they are only a few, be grateful for them all, just go for a walk, and take a friend if you want. Gratitude is a new word for me to reflect upon now, and I am grateful for what I have. As I walked amongst the dragonflies this evening, I realized how important they are to me, I am so grateful that they were there to follow me around. 27-Aug-2019.
Recently I had made a comment to a friend that I would love to go to an art class for three months, he replied by saying. What's stopping you? I laughed and replied with, Me. He being my age, had just finished a Two-Year Business Course at a local College. And now I have to challenge myself to go back to school, and that's the tough part, me.
When alone, I research, study, read, write, draw, paint, work on this website, and walk around outside. Everything that I do is about educating myself. I frequent Barnes and Noble Bookstore, and The Public Library.
In 1985 I stopped to see an old Classmate of mine. Unfortunately he had passed away nine-months before I had arrived. Devastated and in shock, I went home and spent a great deal of time remembering all of our good times together, they were some good times. I surely do miss him. I learned that friendship had an importance in our lives, more than I had realized.
Never forget to tell those that you are close to that you love them. It only takes a few short seconds to remind someone that you still care about them. Give them a hug, and always remind them about how much they mean to you. A recent encounter opened my eyes up to hope, love, mindfulness, empathy, and to some positive motivational blessings.
Kindness, spread it around. Some people don't get it, but most people do, and so just go and do it.
Years ago, a great friend had asked me of a favor, I had promised that I would do so, for he was not able to do it. He passed away before I completed the task that he had asked of me. I promised myself to never let that happen again. It has been a heavy burden to carry for many years.